Working…and working out
As soon as I wrote my last update on how I was going to own this month of may. I get a call from the hospital I applied to a while back,ended up with an interview and another interview and was full of anxiety interview nerves and a loss of appetite so I had to chill out on the working out, then flash forward to today and I get the call saying I’ve been offered both positions!…hooray for me but I’ve totally screwed up my working out plan! for this darn month!.
I can’t believe that I’ve become “that” person. First thought was how will I work my workouts in with work?. I have issues.
Anyway, new job means more money to buy workout clothes?…Hollaaaaa…
Sweat and Soreness
Seriously seems like all I do lately is alternate between sore body parts, sweating all the time and peeing from drinking water like I have no sense.
I’ve made it a goal to workout everyday… almost everyday…pretty much everyday this month. I’ve become obsessed with weights and can’t seem to get my behind on the treadmill or elliptical to do cardio, cardio is a pain right now, literally. However I have discovered workout videos on youtube. I always knew of workout tapes,dvd’s ect haha tapes Jane Fonda hollaaaa, but I never really thought about actually using one to get myself sweating like a pig.
I had this thought in my head that it wouldn’t even feel like I was working out, wouldn’t feel the burn…but sweet lord, I am feeling the pain. I made a playlist of videos a lot of Amanda Russell even tried some insanity before they were taken down, Sean T…he scares me, when I see the Insanity commercials on TV, I want to run out of the room because I feel like he can see me and will make me do things. Tried a day of that and my body shed tears.
My hamstrings…ugh those damn hamstrings, killed me for almost three days, safe to say I was wrong. Those workout videos ain’t no joke yo.
So with that said, I will punk this month of May like a Modasucka. That is all.
My fitness update
So I’ve had quite the experience this last month. I started using my fitness pal and I swore to myself I would not become one of those calorie counting freakazoids. What Happened?!, I started getting obsessive. So about three days of calorie counting the living daylights out of everything I was like Hold Up!. This is not going to work. My mind started becoming preoccupied with food only. I kept thinking about how much I could eat, food was taking over my mind. I would get nervous when I wanted to snack because I didn’t want to go over, I would then break down and just eat and then on came the guilt. I finally got fed up and was like Hecks no!, I refuse to become one of those people I don’t want to be. Feeling trapped, not enjoying food like I should. I’ve got one life and I need to enjoy it. Being obsessed about food?, ain’t nobody got time for that!.
The positive to using mfp, is that it has helped me become aware of how many calories are in things. Things that you wouldn’t even think of looking at. It’s helped me to control portions. I can just about tell what a serving and how much a cup of things are now, which I’m thankful for because before I had no clue.
As for my working out, I’ve been doing pretty good with it. In fact I’ve lost two lbs lol. I worked out for an hour and almost 30 minutes today and burned a little more than 700 calories which is fantastic. Almost everyday I’ve gotten in a workout. I’ve been in a pretty annoyed mood for the last week due to life problems so working out is keeping me sane, If I were allowing life to stress me out and NOT workout Chillllleeeee watch out, I would be crackin skulls. I still feel like I have a lot to learn and a lot to do, it’s important that I stay consistent, push myself and continue to make healthy choices. Anyway until next time.
It’s been a while since I’ve written about my fitness journey. I’ve been working out not as much as I want but something it better than nothing. Yesterday I had a horrible day, paired with a dark cloud of emotions thanks to pms looming over head. I had a moment of weakness and wanted to give up on working out but I said no, giving up would only make me mad at myself and I don’t know about any of you but when I’m mad at myself and have no one else to blame or want to punch in the face, it’s the worse feeling in the world.
So I said let me buckle down and get serious about working out. I’ve been lollygagging around and I am paying for it by not seeing results I want to see. So I took some pics, I want to get on the before and after bandwagon. Not brave enough to put them on here so I put them in a email which I will dedicate to fitness/pics. I downloaded Myfitnesspal today, now I am no calorie counting crazy woman but I thought it would be nice to use for a bit, just a BIT none of that counting for the rest of my life bidness, just to get and idea of my eating habits, how much I’m eating and what I need to fix. So I’m getting serious, getting down like james brown and going to get myself healthier and in the shape I want…well what my body wants. So Today is day one.
Just bought a heart rate monitor. I’m really excited.That is all.
Had an intense workout yesterday, did some weights and now I have under boob pain…I don’t even know how that happens. After I finished did some cardio, run,walk,run,walk and so on and almost died three times but it felt good. Today my body is broken which makes me feel good…at least mentally.
I have to make a promise
To never go so long without working out again. I worked out yesterday for the first time in about a month and a few weeks. I lifted weights my arms felt like jelly right away. I stretched my legs I was as stiff as a board. I felt more mad then good during that workout. I need to make time for it. Doing Clinicals wore me out but I could have worked out afterward or the weekend which I didn’t. Now I’m disappointed in myself and I don’t know about anyone else but being mad at yourself is like the worst thing ever because there is no one else to blame. So I just have to suck it up. Get back on my motivation bandwagon and start my working out again. I know it doesn’t matter how you fall just as long as you get back on and I have to make a promise now that I will try my hardest to stay on and when I do fall get up fast.
So I got in a really good workout yesterday. Got my strength training on and did some cardio. Found out I don’t have class on Thursday so I’m excited to not do anything…I’m lying I’ll workout. I’m really liking how motivated I’ve been lately, I guess I better soak all this in because in a few weeks ill be doing a two week straight full time internship at the hospital, so I might be too darn exhausted to workout So in other news tomorrow I have a group presentation, thank goodness for it being a group but I hate them with a Passion and I feel like this class is so pointless It’s not even funny,I just want it over because its literally dragged on for a week and I have super bad anticipation anxiety. Then I start another class wednesday eff off life!!!.
I need to workout!
I worked out ONCE last month, work and school have just taken up my time and it’s pissing me off. I caught a glimpse of that Under Armour commercial Sweat everyday?,for women…got me so pumped, I’m like YES!!! I want to wear that!, I want to do random yoga poses that make my butt look amazing!!, I want to run!!, I want to do a little weird jig!. Hecks YES!, but it never happened because I needed to study blah blah blah!. It’s like my body is itching for some movement other than picking up a book. It’s gotten so bad, when I watch football on Sundays I’m like omg I want to play football, I want to run and catch stuff. I picture myself catching balls from my gorgeous future husband Aaron Rodgers. I’m losing my marbles.
Soooooo…have to get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow for a saturday class, Screw my life, but since I literally fight falling asleep after class I am going to attempt a workout. Please pray for me.